Category: Staying Sober
Posted by: recoveryadvocates | on July 21, 2013
How an ex-client of Recovery Advocates describes their experience with drug using dreams…
Since the day I got sober I have had using dreams. At first they occurred all the time and as time went on they slowly dissipated.
A using dream is classified as a dream where you would use drugs or alcohol. For addicts and alcoholics in sobriety it is a scary thing because it can feel so real. To a normal person a using dream is not a big deal, but to a alcoholic it is an intense experience. Normal people don’t care if they drink or use drugs from time to time. To someone in sobriety, especially a 12 step program, a relapse is a death defying issue.
Sometimes people get sober for a couple years and relapse. They try to use the same amount they used to with no tolerance, and they accidentally overdose. That’s the end of their story from one relapse. If you don’t die from the relapse, you lose your “time” (how long you have been sober) which is like an accomplishment.
So the other night I had a using dream and it was very vivid. I rarely have them, but when I do it really scares me. In my dream I managed to find some heroin I had squirreled away which was a mission to get. I was walking through hotels and climbing staircases. I eventually got to my friends hotel room and when I got here he has some heroin I had him stash away for me. In the dream I did not care if I relapsed and all I wanted to do was get high. This is when I woke up in a cold sweat. It felt so real and thought I was about to lose everything. My sponsor says these dreams are good because they are a reminder of what it is like if you relapse.
Posted by: recoveryadvocates | on July 1, 2013
Recovery Advocates of Thousand Oaks, CA is very happy to present writing from our staff members as well as from current and previous clients. Here is an entry from a client who went through our treatment program some time ago and wishes to share about his experience with staying sober when all you really want to do is drink and/or use…
I used to be the type of alcoholic and addict that could not stop. Once I started there was no off switch. There is a saying in sobriety called 1 drink is too many and 1000 drinks is never enough. This I can absolutely relate to. When I started using drugs I liked them so much I just wanted more and more. I was not happy when I didn’t have any. I was miserable and wanted to stop this horrid way of living, but I was so sucked into the lifestyle I could not stop. At this point I had basically lost everything and wanted a new way of life. I got sober and learned how to stay sober through a 12 step group. I now have been sober for almost 4 1/2 years. I also got sober at a very young age since my drug use started at a very young age. Anyways now that I have been sober I have found ways to cope with living a sober lifestyle.
The other day I took 3 sober friends with me and went to magic mountain. It was extremely hot, but we had a great time. I also like watching new movies and working out at the gym. The gym has become a very important part of my life and my sobriety. I want to be as healthy as possible. Drugs and alcohol will only put me at a disadvantage. So now it is easy to think I can have 1 drink at a bar, but I know I cannot only have one. Since I know I cannot only have 1 drink which in reality would be around 8 drinks, I chose not to drink anymore. When I drink I lose control of my life and it becomes very unmanageable. This is why I stay sober no matter what.